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If time were a person I would picture them as a rebellious teen who never listens to anyone and does what it wants. I mean come on name one person who throughout their life has gotten time to work with them. Whether it's a child counting down until their next Birthday or a teenager waiting for there permit, the title of adult, the ability to drink. Then we pass all these perks of getting older we want it to stop but it doesn't listen. I wish the confidence and independence that comes with age could just work for me now. You see most people my age are for the most part independent. Or so they say but a lot of us still rely on our parents. I wish I had the financial independence to work things out because lets face it freedom nowadays must be funded. That is the goal we see at the end of our long years of education. An author once said that he loved writing because it allowed him to be free. This is what I wish for more then anything. I miss home but I know i can't go there forever, when is it the right time to let go completely? no where in the near future that I am sure of but when does one know. When does one finally comes to term with it. This is not a question someone can give you the correct answer too. I know someone who still lives with their parents but is not the regular cliche. They are independent and financially sound as far as I can tell. Then there are people who left their parents house in early twenties when their parents tried to prevent them from seeing the person they loved.....Which as far I can assume was both a blessing and mistake. I'm sure when I leave my home it will be for my own reasons, yet I know i am not ready and I worry that this could be a problem in the future. Just thinking about it leaves a harsh feeling in my chest like a stone has settled there. I think that is why for the most part i am drawn by books that people my age get an exception and get the chance of freedom early, freedom and responsibility but they seem to have limited regrets and plow forward down there path. I want that
I want certainty
I want Freedom
I want time
I want certainty
I want Freedom
I want time
And It's Only June
I have come to the conclusion that nothing is as it seems. I came home from college expecting things to be just as i thought, just as i left it and I can tell you it isn't. Even those i thought i knew the best are throwing curve balls at me. I just don't understand. People whom I have trusted and loved for my entire life have pulled stunts I can't understand. I mean its pretty hard to hear the words ''Get the hell out'' from someone you love and trust. What is even worse is I waited and called this person and they said ''I'll call you back'' because one of there friends needed them more. I wanted to scream and say i wish you had that sort of
Down to this
Okay does text stalking a girl who you have only met twice and has made it pretty clear that she DOES NOT WANT TO TALK TO YOU sound appealing at all to you? It really doesn't to me. I understand that whole you like them want to text them all the time thing but WE ARE NOT FRIENDS AT ALL. I have met you twice, both on accident and made it pretty clear I do not want your ugly monkey presence anywhere near me. I texted him three times to please stop and yet he still persists. I do not understand at all, I have seen him with other girls who actually seem to like him and yet he comes after me. I think it is pretty fucked up that it has come down to
Missing the Freedom
Does anyone really understand that once December roles around it is pretty much a blur until Christmas. I mean I am waiting for an awesome Christmas present to come into the mail and that person is going to love it. The thing is I'm not sure if I want to go home. I love the freedom of college and the right to eat when and what I want (though food is perhaps a bad example). The ability to come home and just crawl into bed whenever you please. Stay up in wee hours of the morning to draw and write and do the things I love the most. I guess the fact of the matter is to some extent I have gotten used to Freedom and I don't want to give it up.
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So Here We Are
So here we are everyone, we made it. Typing this in my dorm room and although this isn't my first night its still exciting. i have now officially been to all of my classes and I'm just so excited to start everything. It really is liberating being on your own. The little things YOU get to decide really add up. After a request of someone I found a picture of one of the main characters in my book The Window Project and she edited it to give him his trademark blue hair. After seeing that I felt inspired and some hours later I found all the main characters. Seeing all of them in real life coupled by the freedom I feel right now I suddenly wanted t
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